When I grow up

I randomly came across this post I wrote almost 2 years ago, but for some strange I never published it. I decided to publish it now because it’s funny (in a good way) how my life is unfolding. I’m currently working a second job as a fashion stylist for Google’s styling app – Tailor, and I’m working on an interior decorating project. As tiring as everything is, and as much as I hate neglecting my blog, I’m really happy with what I’m doing right now and I know it’ll only get better from here!

Written September 26th 2016:

When I grow up I want to be… – I feel really silly saying that at 28 years old, but I can honestly say that I haven’t really narrowed it down yet. I want to do it all; I want to be a fashion stylist, interior designer, and writer, but what is getting in the way of my dreams? Experience, that’s what!

I followed the “traditional” path – graduate from high school, go to college, get a degree that has “I just wanted to graduate” written all over it, go to grad school – get an M.B.A. and come out with no real experience, a shit ton of student loan debt and no networks to rely on. So here I am 10 months after graduation, with an entry-level job that’s good and all, but it’s not long-term. Now I’m asking myself the kindergarten question: What do I want to be when I grow up?

As a 5-6-year-old kid, I fell in love with fashion after watching Cindy Crawford on MTV’s House of Style. I made clothes for my dolls, started sketching for my future fashion line at age 12, joined the sewing club (still don’t know how to sew), discovered my love for interior design at 13, and had dreams of becoming a writer in high school. Somewhere in between then and now the aspirations sort of got lost. I was caught up in reality and my parent’s opinions and suggestions. My parents would tell me, “you need to go to college, get a corporate job and make as much money as possible!” No one I personally knew was encouraging me to do what made me happy, so I stopped considering my dreams as viable career options.

Over the last 7 months, I’ve decided to pick my dreams back up. I’m single, with no kids, no ties, and no real responsibilities. If I fail at my dreams, I will be the only person affected by the failure. Well, my parents would be too if I have to move back in, but the point is, I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. The same type of jobs I’ve been doing over the last 10 years will still be here if this doesn’t work out. I’m going to do it all, even though I may not have the experience in my prospective fields. The want, the drive, the passion is all there, I just hope and pray it will carry me through. I would be lying if I said I’m not scared to jump out there, but I’d rather walk the path scared than sit and wish I would’ve done it. Gary Vee said “document don’t create,” so I’ve decided to document this journey of following my heart. Let’s see how this goes!


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10 thoughts on “When I grow up

  1. I love the part where you say that you went to college, earned an M.B.A. and still felt you only came a way with student loan debt. I have 2 master’s degrees and feel the same way. They say that you go to school to build your network, but I sometimes feel that my first master’s degree was a waste of time and money.

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    1. I completely understand! I’m grateful for having my master’s, but I don’t even know how or if I want to utilize it. School teaches us how to work for other people, but I’ve learned that that isn’t what I want to do. What did you get your degrees in?

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      1. It never crossed my mind to go back for a second one, that’s amazing! I’m glad you were able to utilize the second one! Maybe the first got you prepared for the process of getting the second one.

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    1. Yes ma’am!!! I totally believe that too. I loved your post! I think we all get in our own way sometimes, but realizing where that blockage comes from is probably one of the best things that can happen. We’ve just gotta continue to push through the fear and self-doubt, so we can live our best lives. The risk is absolutely worth it. I’m so excited for your journey!!! ♥♥♥

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      1. Thanks hun!!! Girl, so much has happened in just a year and a half, it’s literally crazy! But what I’ve learned over the last few months is that when you start opening yourself up to having the best, the best will surely come! ♥

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