Life as a millennial may seem easy, but it definitely it has it’s fair share of tough moments. Over the past few weeks I have been trying to figure out which path I need to take in order to get where I ultimately want to go in life. It is the millennial struggle, well – one of them. Right now I’m sitting in my room feeling slightly anxious about writing this post. I’ve been thinking around this issue attempting to avoid confronting my thoughts and trying not to become overwhelmed. I was thinking that instead of using my blog to talk about things after the fact, I figured why not write while I’m in my feelings. That whole Gary (Vee) Vaynerchuk – document vs. create thing, which is basically about showcasing/documenting the journey.
Here we go: I have 3 different passions in life – fashion styling, interior design, and writing. I also have a full-time salaried job where I’ve just received a raise and I’ve decided to take on more responsibility. My job is relatively low stress, pretty flexible, and it pays the bills (including payments to my six figure student loan debt) and allows me to save a bit on the side. Here’s where the millennial struggle comes in: I want to follow my dreams and passions, but the self-doubt gets real sometimes. Am I good enough to pursue these things? Can I really do everything I want to do? Should I just pick one and see how it goes? Will I be financially stable? How do I get the necessary experience to do this successfully? Contrary to popular belief, most millennials are not entitled, we know we need experience to build credibility in our fields, there is no such thing as an overnight success.
Now I know that there are non-millennials who are dealing with the same struggle, but I believe our demographic is struggling with it the most. We’ve been out of college for a few short years, some of us have even obtained graduate degrees, but overall we’re just getting our feet wet in our “careers.” We have an opportunity to stop ourselves from becoming the people who work jobs they hate until they retire or die.
I’ve had this thought in my mind for a while now – do I leave a job I actually like or forgo a better paying position to pursue these passions? I vividly remember what unemployed life was like and I DO NOT want to go back there. To be honest, I really do like my job, but it doesn’t feel long-term to me, another year and I’ll be hitting a ceiling. I also need more money, I can do everything I need to do, except move out of my parents house and of course I would like to pay this debt down faster.
Another part of the struggle is, prior to getting a raise I started thinking about looking for another job to see if I can find something with more pay. I know that giving up my current position to obtain better pay, may result in more stress. A new job most likely will not come with the perks of my current job. I’d have to say goodbye flexible start times, an allotment of work from home days, and a millennial friendly environment. I think about these things every single day until I become overwhelmed and anxious.
Right now I feel stuck and I’m not sure where I really want to go or how to begin the process of it all. Although, I don’t want to wait to jump into pursuing my passions, I know I have time to figure things out. In the meantime, I’ll look for ways to express myself creatively without worrying about becoming the next Marni Senofonte, Monica Rose, or Shonda Rhimes. Doing what I love isn’t about the money, it’s about the art of it. I’ll also keep my job indefinitely. If I come across another position, I’ll figure it out when that time comes. I’l keep grinding, just knowing that faith, patience, and action will be the determining factors of my success.