I Stalked My Ex’s Facebook Page

It seems that I like to torture myself in the most painful ways, one of them being visiting my ex’s Facebook page. I don’t know why I do it or what I want to get out of it, but sometimes I just can’t help myself. I stalked my ex’s Facebook page and got exactly what I deserved.

I stalked my ex's Facebook page

During our on and off relationship, we weren’t following each other on social media, so I created a fake Facebook account to see what he was really doing. You can probably guess what happened next – I found out he was seeing someone else. Like a dumb-ass, I started seeing him again a couple of months after that situation. A few years later, while we were still seeing each other, I found out (through Facebook of course) that he got married! And that my friends was the nail in the coffin.

I stalked my ex's Facebook page

Since that dreadful day, he has apologized profusely, begged, and pleaded for me not to give up on him, but I was done. Our communication dwindled and I’d finally kicked the habit of checking his page until the day I found a Facebook friend request from him back in April. I couldn’t believe this friend request was coming from the same person who didn’t want to be Facebook friends while we were seeing each other, but now he wants to friends (FUCK THAT!). I accepted the friend request…

I stalked my ex's Facebook page

Now that we’ve been Facebook friends for about eight months, I have found myself relapsing into that old habit. I don’t know why I do it or what I want to get out of it. Although we’re deemed friends, I have unfollowed him, but it still doesn’t quell that urge to check his page every now and then. It never fails that the result always produces the same emotions: hurt, anger, post-breakup depression. I feel that I in some way deserve to feel like this, knowing what he’s done and how we ended. He’s moved on and he’s happy, so it seems. I try my hardest to exhibit the same depiction through my Facebook page, in hopes that he sees it and feels the same shitty way that I do. This moving on stuff is hard, I can’t wait for the day I can finally say that I no longer stalk my ex’s Facebook page, and it all becomes a faint memory.

6 thoughts on “I Stalked My Ex’s Facebook Page

  1. You don’t need to feel bad. There was a time that i was capable of substituting an entire FBI cybercrime department team by myself. I had taken stalking to a pro level. Sometimes you need to do it and get it out of your system. In my opinion people in this digital age belong in one of two categories:
    1. those who stalk their exes at least once online

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  2. Girllllll, you are speaking my language! I can’t tell you the number of times I have done this! But you know what, the thing that finally allowed me to move on from the whole social media stalking is remembering why we broke up in the first place. Remembering how that person made me feel and how unloved I was. That alone allowed me to move the heck on! You don’t need someone in your life that isn’t going to treat you like a princess.

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    1. Absolutely!!!!! That’s really helped me get over the stalking lol. I eventually just unfollowed him and when that urge to lurk comes up, (because it still does) I just remember how he treated me and why we didn’t work out. It really helps 🙂


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